For the Anniversary of Graduation, II.
Recently some friends are talking about the feeling of lonely as being oversea students. We figured out several ways to make such a feeling an experience of pure solitude. Trying them can either make someone more appreciate ordinary life or, maybe more possibly, the opposite. Below are our top ten list.
- Self-cook and eat alone for two days. The feeling could be very personal, especially if you are a glutton of some hometown 小吃, or you are a super fan of your mother’s cuisine, or you share some special memory with someone back in college restaurant.
- Read the blogs of someone who is graduating in this June or July. The feeling could be mild or strong, depending on some keywords in posts, such as 寝室，西门，鸡翅。
- Browse through your cell’s contacts at lunch break, best after a very busy morning. The feeling of solitude could be overwhelming if your contacts are full of old friends back in home country whom you aren’t able to reach at this time of a day.
- Sitting in a bus which is full of 白人女高中生。You are the only one who is not white, who is not female, whose mother tongue is not English. You 傻X地 wear suites and tie while everyone else 穿着热裤.
- Play CS or Warcraft alone ,play 8-balls alone, or play 升级 with yourself. If you are the 80 generation survived through the Chinese eduation system, should have some memory from at least one of them.
- Call or chat with a domestic friend who keeps talking about another friend’s wedding or honey moon. Maybe N.A. if not single.
- Climb an over 15 mile trail in Chisos Mountain. The only sounds you will hear are the birds, wind and the crunch of gravel under your boot. Besides solitude, it also delivers scenery and serenity. Looking at the desert mountains below your feet, you may either ask yourself 美好天地与谁共享 or 天地中自己有多渺小, depending on a high or a low position you are at on the career path.
- Drive from Marathon (TX) west to Alpine (TX) during sunset. It’s a remote place where even GPS makes mistakes. Based on your personal experience, the feeling of solitude may be mixed with 老无所依 or 年轻无所依 or a fear of 德州电锯杀人狂.
- 深夜出门寻找食物，开车翻越 curb，被警察逮住。被要求数手指，单脚下蹲，走直线。然后被戴上手铐，扔到警车不能从内开启的 back seat，听到英文版的“你说的任何话有可能成为呈堂证供”。
- 倒立，转呼啦圈。
第四点很hot，第九点很tragic，呵呵。有时候孤独也是一个人的狂欢，过来这几年，阿展你就练成仙了，哈哈。今年圣诞回来吧？
I want to, but may depend on my boss
I cooked and ate alone, in lonely summer longdays,
plates sucked liked a pussy, fucking my fucking face
warrrrrrr crafting alone, either in light or at night
fuck’em I can be heard, through neither air nor mic
heading Marathon west, midnight at the Alpine
a hotel might at CA, so we saw not a damn light
driving for a burger, the baby crushed the curd
I hit the brake I said, he said you fuck the gas, sir
Now get off the car, and wear on the cuffs,
hands on back, you know “you have the right”
to remain in silent, called foolly mirandarise
you shouldn’t drive your car back, so someone you should contact
having never thought for seconds, I replied no one would come
having never asked for help, just to win some respect
so called “没什么的”, followed by “just a fact”
handstand, 呼拉圈，my head on rocky-hard earth
cause head’s broken, fuck out this stupidest verse